Sadie is as excited as we are (or so she thinks!) to tell you that she is going to be a big sister in August!
We are so over the moon to share our news, especially after our miscarriage in October. We feel so lucky that it has happened for us quickly as we know this is not the case for everyone.
I put off taking a test until I was already about 6 or 7 weeks as I was so nervous about both possible outcomes. Obviously, being pregnant was what we wanted but the fear of having another miscarriage was very real, and still is. I’m still not sure that I will be able to truly relax and enjoy this pregnancy until much closer to the end.
For the first 12 weeks I didn’t even really process that we were actually having a baby. We had a dating scan at 8 weeks and saw a little blip on the monitor with a heartbeat, which was a relief but still didn’t seem real. It wasn’t until our 12 week scan where we saw an actual baby with arms and legs moving around in there that I started to believe that we might be lucky enough to bring a baby home at the end of August.
Physically, so far this pregnancy has been pretty similar to Sadie’s. I’ve been a little bit more tired than usual and have gone off coffee – although not iced coffee which has been perfect for this time of year! I didn’t go off any foods and have just been SO hungry! I have been eating my weight in cheese each week and have eaten enough jars (yes, jars!) of pickles to give the “pregnant women love pickles” story a pretty good boost. The only difference is that instead of needing to eat first thing in the morning to keep the nausea at bay, this time it seemed to hit in the evenings after I ate enough dinner for a small family. That has passed now, although I’m pretty sure the cheese and pickles are going to stick around!
I couldn’t write this post without acknowledging the many amazing women I have connected with since sharing our loss. If you are still in a season of loss, waiting or uncertainty I want our news to bring you hope and show that rainbows after a storm are certainly a possibility. I know it’s a long hard road for so many people struggling with infertility and we have been very lucky in the scheme of things. Having our miscarriage still made this journey much harder than we anticipated but also so much sweeter now that we are expecting this rainbow baby.